Some of these stories are graphic, uncensored accounts of actual rapes and surrounding
circumstances. The language used may be raw and include street slang. JDI has made
only minor edits for spelling and clarity. The views expressed are those of the
individual survivor/author, and are not necessarily the views of Just Detention
I was assigned to work as an administrative porter for the major and captain, which
included taking care of the incoming officers. I prepared their lunches, drinks,
or whatever I was told to do by these officers. This particular officer began to
show interest in me as though she really appreciated what I did for them. She would
sometimes sit and talk to me about family things such as her children, husband,
Then she began to talk about her childhood. She would tell me things that were so
sad, things like how people would take advantage of her…knowing all this, I felt
a sense of pity for her.
I would do special little things, like have the coffee, food, drinks ready for her
as soon as she got her breaks. So one day we were in the captain’s lobby, I was
washing some cups and she was standing their talking as usual. And then all of a
sudden, she said, how long have you been locked up. Before I could answer, she closed
the closet door and began holding me and kissing me. I pleaded with her, that I
couldn’t do this, she got angry, and kept telling me to be quiet.
When she stopped, she became somewhat apologetic. I became real nervous and scared.
When she left, I worried about what just happened. I had this boss that I felt close
to, so when I got my nerves together, I went to talk to this officer. I told her
what had happened, and who it was. This officer said to me, you know she’s crazy,
she’s been here ten years and she been doing things like that. Just stay away from
her, because she got children and I’d hate to see her get fired.
So I tried that, it didn’t work. The next time was a nightmare. She said, “You trying
to get me fired?” I assumed that the officer I told had said something to her about
the incident. This is when she told me to get down on my knees, if I didn’t she
would say I touched her in an inappropriate way. I knew if she did this, I would
definitely receive a new charge.
So I got on my knees, she pulled down her pants and pulled her panties over and
said come on you know how to do this, acting real angry. I was scared as hell, because
if I’d gotten caught I know she’d say I was raping her. When she left I quickly
told Sgt. G. Sgt. G said it was nothing we could do about it. Because I was an inmate
and she was an officer, I couldn’t win that fight. Sgt. G said she’d watch her.
But this sergeant didn’t do anything to stop her from assaulting me.
I went and tried to turn this officer in, but the administration fixed it up like
I was having a consensual sexual relationship with the officer. As far as I know
she was charged with having an improper sexual activity with a person in custody.
But this wasn’t a consensual relationship.
TDCJ fixed it the way they wanted it, transferred me, and this was the only major
disciplinary ticket I’d had in 25 years, and this disciplinary is a lie. I served
the officer with a statement telling her if she didn’t stop sexually abusing me,
I would file a formal complaint, but I did fear something like this would happen.
Because I worked around the administration and I watch them turn things around on
inmates all the time. The major took information from me to keep me from proving
I did seek help to stop the officer from her sexual abuse.
On this little unit I was on, there were several females taking advantage of inmates.
The officer confessed of the sexual acts. But the agency allowed her to cop to improper
sexual activity with a person in custody. And not of the actual crime she committed,
sexual assault on a person in custody.
They won’t tell me the outcome of this ordeal. I request information and I receive
no answer. My grievance refers me to write Office of Inspector General for the outcome
of this incident. [They say that] because I’m male, it’s impossible for this to
happen. And that’s not true, I know for a fact. In Texas prisons an officer can
get you killed.
- Ivory, Texas