Some of these stories are graphic, uncensored accounts of actual rapes and surrounding circumstances. The language used may be raw and include street slang. JDI has made only minor edits for spelling and clarity. The views expressed are those of the individual survivor/author, and are not necessarily the views of Just Detention International.

I was assigned to work as an administrative porter for the major and captain, which included taking care of the incoming officers. I prepared their lunches, drinks, or whatever I was told to do by these officers. This particular officer began to show interest in me as though she really appreciated what I did for them. She would sometimes sit and talk to me about family things such as her children, husband, etc.

Then she began to talk about her childhood. She would tell me things that were so sad, things like how people would take advantage of her…knowing all this, I felt a sense of pity for her.

I would do special little things, like have the coffee, food, drinks ready for her as soon as she got her breaks. So one day we were in the captain’s lobby, I was washing some cups and she was standing their talking as usual. And then all of a sudden, she said, how long have you been locked up. Before I could answer, she closed the closet door and began holding me and kissing me. I pleaded with her, that I couldn’t do this, she got angry, and kept telling me to be quiet.

When she stopped, she became somewhat apologetic. I became real nervous and scared. When she left, I worried about what just happened. I had this boss that I felt close to, so when I got my nerves together, I went to talk to this officer. I told her what had happened, and who it was. This officer said to me, you know she’s crazy, she’s been here ten years and she been doing things like that. Just stay away from her, because she got children and I’d hate to see her get fired.

So I tried that, it didn’t work. The next time was a nightmare. She said, “You trying to get me fired?” I assumed that the officer I told had said something to her about the incident. This is when she told me to get down on my knees, if I didn’t she would say I touched her in an inappropriate way. I knew if she did this, I would definitely receive a new charge.

So I got on my knees, she pulled down her pants and pulled her panties over and said come on you know how to do this, acting real angry. I was scared as hell, because if I’d gotten caught I know she’d say I was raping her. When she left I quickly told Sgt. G. Sgt. G said it was nothing we could do about it. Because I was an inmate and she was an officer, I couldn’t win that fight. Sgt. G said she’d watch her. But this sergeant didn’t do anything to stop her from assaulting me.

I went and tried to turn this officer in, but the administration fixed it up like I was having a consensual sexual relationship with the officer. As far as I know she was charged with having an improper sexual activity with a person in custody. But this wasn’t a consensual relationship.

TDCJ fixed it the way they wanted it, transferred me, and this was the only major disciplinary ticket I’d had in 25 years, and this disciplinary is a lie. I served the officer with a statement telling her if she didn’t stop sexually abusing me, I would file a formal complaint, but I did fear something like this would happen. Because I worked around the administration and I watch them turn things around on inmates all the time. The major took information from me to keep me from proving I did seek help to stop the officer from her sexual abuse.

On this little unit I was on, there were several females taking advantage of inmates. The officer confessed of the sexual acts. But the agency allowed her to cop to improper sexual activity with a person in custody. And not of the actual crime she committed, sexual assault on a person in custody.

They won’t tell me the outcome of this ordeal. I request information and I receive no answer. My grievance refers me to write Office of Inspector General for the outcome of this incident. [They say that] because I’m male, it’s impossible for this to happen. And that’s not true, I know for a fact. In Texas prisons an officer can get you killed.

- Ivory, Texas

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